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Tuesday, October 31, 2006
had my olvl chinese retake todae...kinda tiring sia...slept at 1 then woke up at 2.30...slept for 1hr30min only damn sleepy...while doin the paper i almost fell asleep...was simply too tired to stay awake...but anyway not really a nice day for me...hmm you seem to hav loss weight...mus take care ar...o lvl important but ur health is even more important...remember to take care okies...wanted to chiong the last part of bio todae de but simply too tired to finish it...so i guess i gonna get some sleep and maybe wake up at 4 tmr to finish it up...guess tat bout all...
>To You:Take good care of yourself...dun stress urself too much... :) <
>Still waiting for you to forgive me<
SaDneSs beFalLs aT|12:03 AM|
Sunday, October 29, 2006
haix sian tmr start my o lvl...veri scared i mus said hahax...but anyway start with chinese which i got a 4 previously so i will said i am able to accept any thing tat goes terribly wrong tmr hahax...but anyway mugging hard...nvr did i mug so hard for anything...but anyway todae started my revision of bio at 4 in the morning but sad to said fell asleep at bout 6...dunno y everytime do bio sure slp de...zzz...hmm mus try to over come this le...bio is on tis wed...stupid timing...y dun early or later by 1 day then good...hahax but anyway trying to get into a jc no matter wat other think bout me...
>Happy Birthday Pei Wen<
>Still waiting for you to forgive me<
SaDneSs beFalLs aT|9:22 PM|
Friday, October 27, 2006
Another early blog entry....
Todae was a veri tiring day...woke up at 8 todae...so late...then slack till 1 something before i went to mit my shifu, jin hock...had alot of problem so had to call him out de...so ps sia call him out at such a period of time...but anyway he was damn quick in solving almost 40 question which i didnt know how to do...hahax thx lots sia...then after that came nigel mao xin n jun jie...slack awhile at mall mac hahax...then saw pei wen walking pass hahax...then waited for wen rui to come...after that had our lunch at around 3 something...hmm shldnt be doing tat as i hav been having some problem with my gastric...but anyway had a few round of race lolx...after that wen rui accompany me to bugis to look for present...but only manage to find 1 thing so had to run to raffle...hahax but walk around a few time and onli got 1 thing hahax...now we went to city hall...finally found the veri last thing i was lookin for...wow wat a walk we had hahax...so tiring and my knee cap is still giving me trouble...but anyway at around 9 we went to mit nigel n mao xin for pool hahax then play all the way till now so tiring...hmm mus get some slp ar tmr morning mus wake up at 8 to prepare for tution(intensive)...waaa sian next week having o lvl le..hope tat u will wish me luck...but anyway tat bout all...
>Still waiting for you to forgive me<
SaDneSs beFalLs aT|12:23 AM|
Thursday, October 26, 2006
Gonna blog early todae then get some slp if possible...
I seriously dunno wat is goin on anymore...i seriously wanna know...can u plz tell me...u can scream shout slap or whack me i dun mind...but plz dun treat me this way...i really cant take it anymore...i am veri veri confused n sad now...dunno wat to said anymore...guess that is it...but still holding on to hopes of salvaging this friendship...
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>Still waiting for you to forgive me<
SaDneSs beFalLs aT|12:29 AM|
Wednesday, October 25, 2006
hmm it is around 5am now slept for only about 4 hr...but not abit tired...maybe is used to it le ba...haiz feeling veri loss now...keep thinking of the unhappy things tat has been goin on recently...is there anyone that is willing to listen to me grumble...guess not...o lvl coming le all buzy with their revision...cant blame them also...hmm i gonna bury myself in my book again...anyway nth much to do...
>Still waiting for you to forgive me<
SaDneSs beFalLs aT|5:01 AM|
Jus pass 1am...havent slp yet...my lifestyle hav change so much...much more quiet now...not veri use to it...but anyway gonna hav to adapt to it sooner or later...anyway got math test ltr...sian ar still havda go to skool 8.30 somemore...stupid time...hmm mus go get some slp now if not cannot wake up tmr ar...guess tat all i havda said...nth much nth more....
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>Still waiting for you to forgive me<
SaDneSs beFalLs aT|1:06 AM|
Monday, October 23, 2006
it is around 3 in the morning now...havent slp yet...had a real tiring day...ytd slept for bout 3 hrs only hahax...stayed up not to study but to watch my idol race for the very last time in his favourite track hahax...lame rite hahax but mus support my idol no matter wat...well 4th place okie la after all that had happen...well good race for him...tat is the only interesting thing tat happen to me todae...
>Still waiting for you to forgive me<
SaDneSs beFalLs aT|3:00 AM|
Friday, October 20, 2006
hmm had my o lvl pract...kinda badly done...bio part feel tat everything is wrong sian...hmm i manage to pick up my mood...hope nth goes wrong for me anymore...i really breaking down le...really cant take anymore blow le...
>Still waiting for you to forgive me<
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SaDneSs beFalLs aT|1:23 AM|
Wednesday, October 18, 2006
Good luck to all having practical...Jia you...
SaDneSs beFalLs aT|11:16 PM|
Tuesday, October 17, 2006
todae was a quiet day for me...totally nth interesting happen...woke up at 2.48 todae hahax remembered exactly...first time slp so long...dunno y maybe jus tired ba...but anyway slack through the whole day...still no mood to start studying...sian tmr got tution(intensive) sure to fall asleep halfway hahax...hope i do not do so...tat bout all hahax...
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Still waiting for you to forgive me...
SaDneSs beFalLs aT|11:30 PM|
todae was a quite a pleasant day for me...manage to cheer myself up abit...hahax quite afew thing tat i used to cheer myself up hahax...but anyway todae i went pooling again as usual hahax...but todae was to celebrate nigel birthday...but quite tiring hahax...after tat we went slackin around hougang hahax...then came home ard 12 hahax...not much has been happening lately...so havent been blogging...but anyway trying to pick up my mood hahax...sry all my friends but i seriously need some more time...
Oh ya one more thing i wanna add...i know sometime ppl ard me are jus joking but plz nvr ever joke bout liking someone...maybe i am jus over-sensitive over such thing but i really cant take such jokes and i might nvr ever be able to accept such jokes...sry guys but i really get upset over such jokes even though i know u all dun mean any harm at all...sry sry sry...
Happy Birthday to Leyi and Nigel...
SaDneSs beFalLs aT|12:15 AM|
Friday, October 13, 2006
jus reach home...not becoz i went out early in the morning but becoz i wasnt even at home this morning...spend the whole nite with nigel jun jie mao xin n alex's bro hahax...stay out for the whole nite damn fun...thx nigel for letting me vent my frustration on u...this guy veri steady de okie...knew tat i was feeling down so he went to borrow a soccer ball...hahax poor guy got rammed by me times n again...had a real nice time at the street soccer court...then after that jun jie they all came to join us...then we play big net 2 all the way till this morning hahax...time sure fly...like tat and almost 10 hr is gone...boring day for me...no skool haiz...feel like goin bac to the pass where nth is goin wrong for me...but anyway it is impossible and i jus havda overcome these probs...and thx mdm cheah for being so understanding and not blaming me for not being able to achieve the goals she set for me...i promise u i will do my best during the o's....
SaDneSs beFalLs aT|12:50 PM|
Thursday, October 12, 2006
haiz sian graduation day le...4yr ago was still telling other that graduation was still long but guess i was wrong...it is todae...really mix emotion for me...happy to leave skool but sad to leave someones...hmm firstly it is someone i love...it has been 523 days since i first got to know u...i also nvr regret knowing u...but since tis day has come i wish u a good luck in ur o lvl and stay happy forever...then second come a person whom i really dote on...been friend with her for 4 yrs...i nvr regret wat i did for u and i dun hope for any return...i jus hope tat u will forgive me for the wrong doing i did...i am sorry...frustration set in on me...dunno wat to do...look at my hand 'nice' pattern...done by me...although it look kinda messy but it has a meaning if u look properly...okie gonna end here...meeting my classmate for bball games then maybe join my friend for pool...oh ya ps ar ppl ps u all...but i promise my skoolmates first...but hope to join u guys ltr...
SaDneSs beFalLs aT|1:49 PM|
Wednesday, October 11, 2006
haiz sad ar...still thinking of ytd...while playing pool half way i felt my hp vibrate and was thinking if it was she replying me...well it was a happy moment for me as i though that there was hope of mending the friendship...but guess i was wrong...when i read the content i broke into tear...i really cried...for wat i myself dun even know...i really care bout u does this mean nth to u...ppl around me keep said that me waiting for her to forgive me is a waste of my time...but i refuse to listen to them...i keep telling myself tat there was still hope and that she is jus stressed out by all the pressure she is under...i keep telling myself that but whenever i look at my hp i feel like crying again...oh man boy crying sure got ppl wanna laugh at me liao...but nvm who care how they look at me...but even though u made me so sad i still treat u as someone close to me...and hoping for u to forgive me whether it is 1 wk or 1 mnth i will still wait...
-Please forgive me-
SaDneSs beFalLs aT|5:20 PM|
hmm jus finish playing pool...thx nigel jun jie n winston for being my listening hear...frustrating day...someone stupid made me damn angry...she is angry at me when i dun even know wat happen and she doesnt even wanna giv me a explanation...but nvm jus havda blame myself...so wat if ur result is good it doesnt concern me...really feeling veri sad now...if only i had some beer then can numb myself and escape from reality...zzzz real sleepy now havent been sleeping well for the last few day time to giv my body n mind a rest...but still i am waiting for the answer from u...i really dun wanna giv up this relationship...if u feel tat tis relationship is nth to u i hope tat we can still be friend...
SaDneSs beFalLs aT|12:58 AM|
Sunday, October 08, 2006
Plz take care of yourselves...(forgive me plz)...
SaDneSs beFalLs aT|1:22 AM|
Saturday, October 07, 2006
jus reach home after staying out for almost the whole day...tiring day for me...went to study with nigel and mao xin at hougang mall mac...then after tat went to play pool until bout 12...still trying to find out the answer to a simple question tat has been bothering me for days...if u r reading my blog plz forgive me plz...if i made u angry by accident plz tell me i will make up for it de...
SaDneSs beFalLs aT|12:43 AM|
Thursday, October 05, 2006
haiz sad ar...it has been one whole week since tis whole thing started...all becoz of my temper and my emotion at that point of time...last wk was an eventful week...thing around me are changing so fast really wanna hav a break...i am mentally veri tired but i continue to wish for her forgiving me...but now i am confuse...was my action the reason or wat...or is there something tat i dunno...plz tell me can...i really dunno wat to do now...lots of setback and emotional thing goin on now...first my friend lost his job...then a friend's 4-5 yrs of relationship with his stead gonna go down the drain soon...and then i had to receive my result and some comment from my form teacher...he said i nvr put in effort and worse of all even my tution teacher said i nvr put in effort...was my 4mnth of effort worthless??i sacrifice my weekend jus to study...when friend jio me go out i rejected them...was all tis effort to strive hard for tis prelim worth only tis kind of comment...i really wanna giv up le...but when i am feeling the lowest an sms from her would cheer me up and giv me hope...but y did tis happen...she told me tat nth was wrong jus tat i was over sensitive...but her facial expression gav her away...i didnt wanna think bout it but it kept coming to my mind...does she even treat me as a friend anymore??all i wan now is a simple answer...yes or no...my world is like a nightmare to me now...friend always know me as a happy go lucky guy but seems like u all havda change ur opinion of me...over the yrs i hav change if u all did notice...now i hav learnt to take thing seriously but it hurt alot...now and then when i tok to her she keep ignoring me although she is not my gf but i felt hurt...i mean who will not feel hurt when someone u trust so much is ignoring u from now on...a death sentence was dealt on me and i wasnt even given a trial...i didnt even know wat has happen tat resulted in the situation now...i keep telling myself she is jus stress over her result but as day go by my friend keep telling me to stop lying to myself...how i wish i could...but i am too afraid to get hurt anymore...plz gurl can u jus giv me a chance to find out wat is wrong and make up for it...at tis point of time i feel like we r strangers...not even friend anymore...i dun wan the few yrs of friendship to end jus like tis wo bu gan yuan...every effort i am putting in now is worthless if u dun wanna giv me a chance...all i am asking now is for u to forgive me or jus answer a simple question tat has been bothering me for the whole week...
SaDneSs beFalLs aT|1:03 AM|
Tuesday, October 03, 2006
it is ard 1 in the morning now...still feeling down...until now i am still waiting for a answer from her...i really hoping for a answer...if i really make u angry i apologise to u...plz plz forgive me...i am willing to do anything to earn ur forgiveness...i beg u to forgive me...
SaDneSs beFalLs aT|1:13 AM|