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Thursday, October 05, 2006
haiz sad ar...it has been one whole week since tis whole thing started...all becoz of my temper and my emotion at that point of time...last wk was an eventful week...thing around me are changing so fast really wanna hav a break...i am mentally veri tired but i continue to wish for her forgiving me...but now i am confuse...was my action the reason or wat...or is there something tat i dunno...plz tell me can...i really dunno wat to do now...lots of setback and emotional thing goin on now...first my friend lost his job...then a friend's 4-5 yrs of relationship with his stead gonna go down the drain soon...and then i had to receive my result and some comment from my form teacher...he said i nvr put in effort and worse of all even my tution teacher said i nvr put in effort...was my 4mnth of effort worthless??i sacrifice my weekend jus to study...when friend jio me go out i rejected them...was all tis effort to strive hard for tis prelim worth only tis kind of comment...i really wanna giv up le...but when i am feeling the lowest an sms from her would cheer me up and giv me hope...but y did tis happen...she told me tat nth was wrong jus tat i was over sensitive...but her facial expression gav her away...i didnt wanna think bout it but it kept coming to my mind...does she even treat me as a friend anymore??all i wan now is a simple answer...yes or no...my world is like a nightmare to me now...friend always know me as a happy go lucky guy but seems like u all havda change ur opinion of me...over the yrs i hav change if u all did notice...now i hav learnt to take thing seriously but it hurt alot...now and then when i tok to her she keep ignoring me although she is not my gf but i felt hurt...i mean who will not feel hurt when someone u trust so much is ignoring u from now on...a death sentence was dealt on me and i wasnt even given a trial...i didnt even know wat has happen tat resulted in the situation now...i keep telling myself she is jus stress over her result but as day go by my friend keep telling me to stop lying to myself...how i wish i could...but i am too afraid to get hurt anymore...plz gurl can u jus giv me a chance to find out wat is wrong and make up for it...at tis point of time i feel like we r strangers...not even friend anymore...i dun wan the few yrs of friendship to end jus like tis wo bu gan yuan...every effort i am putting in now is worthless if u dun wanna giv me a chance...all i am asking now is for u to forgive me or jus answer a simple question tat has been bothering me for the whole week...
SaDneSs beFalLs aT|1:03 AM|
